love and blessings =)

heloo pple.
this is gonna be a really important notice.

i know this is annoying. but i'm moving to wordpress!

add me please.

http://loveandblessings.wordpress.com

this is upon times and times of complaints from pals that it's inconvenient for them to add comments/ load the page bla bla.

hope this helps. thanks.
arigato. kamsahumnida. xiexie ni men!

-muaks!-

KNSKNSKNSKNSKNSKNS!

it feels totally like sh!t.
why does the bloody exam seem like never-ending for us? while some of the pple have ardy gone home and enjoy, why are we still here!!?!!
it's like. whenever we coursemates meet each other on msn, the 1st question we will ask each other is 'where are you at?' followed by 'i have no momentum to study already..'.
and then we will end the conversation by saying something like 'jiayou, it will be over soon!'
hahas. it feels good to have each other. it feels good to know that someone else out there is also working hard with us. and these few days i have been keeping my msn window opened, and i have also stopped going to the library. wads the point of going to a place where i have to mug alone? i might as well stay in room. it's the same solitary mugging life anyway. to keep my msn window opened is for us to encourage each other when we feel that we can't carry on any longer, or to talk cork to each other when we are too bored by the notes.

hehes. i know this way of mugging might not be as effective, as we may end up talking non-stop. but heck, it keeps me going, and that's all i need!

why does 29th seem like forever to me? will it ever come? hehe!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO PUIKHUAN! -hugz-
sometimes i will think, if there's no exams, everyday is a birthday to me! HEH. =D

tonnes of things to complete.
notes aside. after exams, i have to pack up and shift my stuffs to another room.
so now. a bit of advertising here.

all young, able-bodied, and kind young men needed for help. contact me if you're able to do some sai-kang for your friend here any day between 1st-7th may. *REWARDS EXPECTED* =p

hahas. i better go back to my notes.

BIOCHEMISTRY i'm gonna kill you, like really slaughter u upside down inside out on tuesday! HEH!

tata!

this is probably my last update before the sem breaks.
because, unknowingly the dreadful exams are like drawing really near. and i'm not getting anywhere for my revision. anyway, hopefully everything will go fine and yup, wish me lotsa lucks on 17-29 april!

on a more cheerful and relaxing note, let me blog about what we did last friday night. =)
being very random bunch of people, more precisely, me and huimin, we actually invited the boys' hostel yum cha gang out for a movie. and we decided on this show called 'untraceable'. it's a psycho movie and some of the scenes in the show are just so bloody disturbing, to the extent that we felt like puking after watching it. it actually took me a while to recover from the state of shock and being highly disgusted after catching it. well, if u like such psychotic, bloody and disgusting show, here's 'untraceable' for you.

after the show, being very random again, we decided to throw a mini belated surprise bd party for jenn wah.
lol! happy 23rd =)

the triple flavor ice-cream that we bought from anderson
making a belated bd wish. lolz
we had a reallie fun time that night. good chat as well.

and on the following saturday, i went home!!!!!~

i decided to head home since i didn't have to teach tuition at sengkang anymore, and yes. this i must admit. i miss home-cooked food!!! lolz.
and yesterday dad brought us to danga bay and we had a nice 'walk' there. we spent some money at the fun fair there which we managed to win 3 stickers and a small soft toy... zzz. we walked around the stalls and shop houses where we didn't find anything appealing. zzz. so as usual, we ended up in a stall and yum cha before heading home.

and today!! mom actually cooked for me so that i could bring back hall and eat! lolz. mom always wants me to eat well cos of my health. i'm often prone to stupid illnesses like flu, sorethroat etc.stupid right. lucky it's nothing big.
anyway, i super love my dad. mom and my sisters!!! =D=D=D

alright. enough of blogging.
i really need to start revising.
mug mug mug mug mug!!!!

till later.

cya on 29 april 2008!
=)

yes. i'm this stubborn, u can call me a weird person, whatever u feel like to.
i know being in such a complicated world, we are often exposed to many temptations, and very often, they are negative.
i don't wish to succumb to all these, and so i hold on to whatever i believe in. i know many of a time it doesn't make lotsa sense to many people， but i still hold on to it.
i refuse to copy. i refuse to look at people's answers.
between good grades(by playing cheat) and average(with my own ability), i choose the latter. call me an idiot.
and of cos, i would like to get really good grades with my own ability. and i'm working towards it!!
things that are against my principle, i'm sorry, 我做不到。

i suddenly remember a book that i read last year, and i just want to blog about it!! remember it inspired and impressed me so much the time i read it. it's such a great book! go read it if you have time, and for sure i'm gonna read it again in the holidays.


Paulo Coelho! u really rock by writing this book!

=)

one more to go tomorrow!!!

tata~

believe me, it's one hell of a week,
there's so much things to be completed. and i'm starting to feel tired.
BUT! i have promised myself to hang on till the end of friday!

i'm seriously in need of some breeze.
but gd thing is that, daddy God is taking very good care of me. i super heart Him! =)

and to all the muggers out there! gambateh! and it will be over in no time.

tata.

yesterday, we had our very 1st genos steamboat of the year!
let's not mention about the number of people that turned out cos it was pathetic. nevertheless, we had a super wonderful and fun time spent together!

i ended school at 4 plus yesterday, and went straight to the jalan bahar sheng siong to buy the stuffs needed with ah cai and weishian. but guess what, it started raining after we boarded the bus. and the best part was, NONE OF US HAD AN UMBRELLA! so we kinda ran towards sheng siong in the rain and though not to the point of being drenched, it was super 狼狈 loh! huhuz no more image liao...

anyway we bought lotsa stuffs, and it was just well within the budget! nice planning huh.
after that we took a cab back, and chitchatted with the cab driver.... bla bla.
but sometimes things just don't go the way we plan. and to our disappointment, we were not able to borrow the steamboat cooker(the kind that we can use to grill and boil together). but but! being the lucky bunch, it turned out that the other cooker that we borrowed has the function of grilling! lols. so at the end we had our steamboat using a rice cooker and that multi-funcitonal cooker!! hoorays~

here are some pics of the day

family big shot
yummy~
me and puikhuan
gay-ing togetherspecial bdae celebration for she weay and  siew hong  +  the special cake.
all in all it was super fun. and i guess we make lotsa noise at block 12 yesterday. but heck la!!


anyway, now back to the cruel reality.
i have 3 CAs in a row next week.
physics, biochem, modern chem.
HELP!!!!

read this somewhere sometime this week.

"when i hear people sigh that life is hard, i'm often tempted to ask, compared to what?"
yeah. life is hard? compared to what?
so whenever i find that things are tough, i will ask myself, 'compared to what?' compared to those who don't even get to eat proper food in the africa? compared to those in the midst of war? compared to those who starve everyday and not have a chance to attend school?
think again, before you complain. =)

so, keep holding on~

gambate!

sick sick sick.

burning sorethroat, running nose plus slight fever.

never felt this terrible before, not after i have enrolled to ntu.

and one thing i must say,

i SUPER love my lecturer MR CHAN SH! he actually allows me to take my math quiz on tuesday!

thanks Chinlong especially for cycling so far away from hall 3 to pass me the medication. and muacks to Emily as well for giving me the vitamin. i super heart you guys!! (X infinity!)

ANYWAY, gonna go to bed soon.
it's HW presentation tomorrow. and i hope i will do fine. it's a group thing so i hope my condition won't affect the group's performance.

sickness goooooooo awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!


cheerios!

now let me blog about what happened last thurday. it was supposed to be boys' hostel last session of the semester, but it turned out to be-- no session. sianz. cos' the person in-charge forgot to inform our block head Joan that the boys went for home leave due to good friday holiday, so we all went there for nothing. =_='''

but ANYWAY!
it turned out to be quite a fun and enjoyable session! we stayed at boys' home and had a little chitchat session. it was most freaky when Fred shared with us about his ghostly encounter in the army camp. we stayed there till 9 plus and decided to go jp for a drink. yes. we WERE SUPPOSED to have a drink at jp, but we ended up catching a mid-night show. i forgot who suggested it but it turned out that everyone was so 'on' about it and we found ourselves walking towards Golden Village in no time. lols.

and guess what. we watched RULE #1(第一诫） by Kelvin Tong. if i'm not wrong, i was the one who suggested it. *faints* i thought it was just another HK styled horror movie, but it turned out to be quite a good show, really! it managed to leave a deep deep impression on me, and it's the only horror movie, as in the real horror-themed movie which managed to make me laugh and scream at the same time. it was really embarrassing when i screamed at the 1st scary scene. then Huimin was like kanna scared by me that she also screamed. lols.

it was a good show that after that we actually stood at the roadside, i repeat, ROADSIDE and discussed about it for more than an hour. we talked and talked and talked.... from the roadside to taxi stand.... and time actually passed so fast that we eventually decided that we would stay till the morning.

so we proceeded to the newly opened 24-hr hawker centre and continued our talk. we actually had so much to talk about, i can't believe that. we had two seniors who are gonna graduate soon so we just listened to what they had got to share. and it was interesting!

so at the end, we left the place at about 6 in the morning, and realised that the 1st bus back to ntu only left at 630. so we waited at the bus stand and took many funny pictures.
huimin was the one who got sabo the most. lols

funny pose


star made by us
random pose
yes, it says 'WSC"
one familyand one thing i must say, it was fun!
we must have another gathering before the seniors leave. (:



tata!

yawnz.

尝试不要把分数看得那么重，或许你会发现，友情比一切来得更珍贵。

had a nice chat with sokhui at clementi central today when we were having lunch. and this is what we came out with. sometimes, marks and results are not everything. it's really true that we have to work hard, and that we have to keep surpassing ourselves. but not to the point that we take everyone around us as enemies. this is the kind of people that i detest most, and i for once, despise this kind of fakeness and superficiality. when it comes to results, it seems that it's more important to some people than anything at all on earth. i'm simply sickened by this behavior.
yawn yawn.

anyway, just some random complaints.

i just realised that my life lately is pretty dull and colourless.
nothing special happened, AND is going to happen.
i'm just in the midst of rushing my mountain of work.

but but, did i tell anyone about this?
my tuition kid Euson is sooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuute! OMG!
actually due to proximity problem, i have decided that i will cancel the assignment after my minimum commitment of one month. but yesterday after i have tutored him for the second time, i somehow feel that i will not bear with leaving him. he is just SO CUTE!
you won't know what he did. when i was teaching him how to do the addition and subtraction sums, he actually lifted up his feet and used his toes to count. omg.
and he was like so enthusiastic throughout the session that ke kept asking me lotsa questions, and asked me to give him work etc.
he's simply adorable. =D

i don't know why. i have always been very fond of kids and babies. not the crying type of course. cos they are simply too cute and pure. =)
dilemma. if i just leave the kid like that, will he think that it's because he's not obedient and stuff like that? i have no idea how i'm gonna tell the mom, but for the remaining two sessions, i will do my best.

aiz. it's monday again. the monday blues come attacking and unfortunately, i've surrenderred. i simply dislike matlab. it's just too time consuming and i don't really see the point of doing la.oh wells, we sometimes really don't have much choice.

hahas! yes i've met the second ff in my life. -grins-


cheerios!

at this wee hour of 2 am, i'm still working on my HW presentation script and the best part is, I'M NOT GETTING ANYWHERE!
the presentation is in one week's time, and i'm still at square one for everything. i don't know how are my other team-mates progressing, but i'm seriously not getting anywhere. i need help, if you're able to provide any.

how am i supposed to link the clip of Bill Clinton apologizing to the communication principles? i've looked through the textbook, and all i could do was to copy word by word. i could continue no more as i realised my sript contained nothing but the facts from the text. this's not what i'm supposed to come out with. not the facts, but how are the facts connected to Clinton's apology? how how?
this is so hard... trust me. i have finally convinced myself that i'm not a thinker. seriously not.
yawnz...
if anyone happens to see this, and you're able to provide any help in any form, call me! but if you're not, just leave me alone.i'm sure i can figure that out someday. i believe. *big big sigh*

lotsa things are piling up.
and the finals are drawing nearer. EXACTLY 1 FREAKING MONTH. tell me, my progress is alright, and that i'm not too slow... i'm trying my best, but sometimes i just feel that i'm a slow learner. why do people take 1 hour to study one chapter and me, half a day?! i suppose some evaluatuon needs to be done, as in how high/low is my concentration level as compared to others when i study.
yawn yawn.
i will jia you.

chenhuiiii
don't say tired so easily.
you've come to point that you easily give up on things.
you weren't like this last time.
remember how determined you were to pass your 2.4 that you went to practise everyday in the track?
remember how determined you were to pass your standing broad jump that you went to 'jump' everyday? you even 'jumped' in the room!
whatever you were determined to achieve in the past, you never failed.

you've come to SG, you've cleared your o's, you got your A2 for eng, which everyone at that time never thought of, you passed your SBJ, which you used to fail, you cleared your a's, you made your personal record of 12.45m for 2.4...

whatever you wanted and were determined to achieve, you got it.

and now, is this time, this very time.
redeem myself.
i won't want to repeat what happened last sem. i don't want to. at least, i will make sure i surpass the 'chenhui' last sem.

GAMBATE!!!

晴天娃娃，你到哪儿去了？

雨不停地在下，下到我心情也差得不得了。

unusual phenomenon in school that i observed. just go to school in a late evening, you will see almost everyone has got a jacket/sweater/pullover/blazer/cardigan(whatever they can use to keep themselves warm) put on. this....is....seriously...unusual.

even when during jc time, when everything was fully-air-conditioned, i didn't see this happened. at least we didn't wear anything extra in the open air. but now, everyone is wearing one, even in a noisy and crowded place like canteen A.
it is that cold!!!

i wonder when will the weather go back to normal again. i'm seriously sick of this. i'm sick of having to put on a jacket even when i'm in the room, trembling in the shower, not being able to wash clothes for almost a week(cos' they just won't dry!) and.... having to use an umbrella wherever i go.

rain rain go away. we have got enough of you. and yes weather, YOU don't have to be that cold do you?
haiz. i'm talking nonsense. as if they can understand me.
zzz.

i'm just being random here.
heh! tata.

i FIGHT only with myself.
i WORK HARD only to achieve my own goal, own dream.
NOT OTHERS'.

you do worse than me, nothing there is for me to gloat over for.
you do better than me, nothing there's for me to be jealous of. in fact, i feel happy for you, and i see you as exemplary.

i pity you who feel sad over people's success, because you think others are better than you. i pity you that you actually feel lousy because of this minor thing, that you don't fair as well in a test. i really pity you.

SELF-WORTH that i mentioned in my previous post. how valuable is yours? 
to be honest, let me tell you mine. it's PRICELESS.

c'mon, see things from another angle! you're not here just to fight with other people, you're here to learn and improve yourself. see the better ones as exemplary, not enemies. at least that's what i think. open up your heart a little bit more, and you may find this a better place.

gambateh!

so i had my 1st tutoring experience just now!
it was at SENGKANG.
YES. I WAS THAT STUPID TO ACCEPT AN ASSIGNMENT AT SENGKANG!
it costs me a total of 6.2 dollars back and forth, and it consumed my 6 hours (5pm-11pm) in total, counting from the time i stepped out of my hall to the time i arrived at my doorstep.
so i was THAT STUPID!
and after some calculation, i realised that i actually won't earn much, minus the 50% commission that i have to pay the agency for the first month.

ARGH!!!! i was almost getting mad travelling sucha long distance just now.

but then, despite all these frustrations,

the kid was cute!

hahas. this is the only thing that makes me feel better. and the mom was like so shocked to hear that i actually stay in boon lay. i bet she must be thinking that i'm mad.

anyway, i thought it would be very awkward but it turned out to be just fine.
i was tutoring this p2 kid. it was quite funny because the mom actually got his elder son's tutor's mixed up with me. and i being the early comer, took the wrong kid and started tutoring. luckily she found out and brought me to another room.

God. tell me. WHAT ALL THOSE MODELS ARE???!
i was a bit stunned when i saw that textbook with all the 'models' to do problem sums. but of cos i didn't show it to the kid. he was like super enthu when it comes to maths, and one funny thing is that at the end of the session, HE ASKED ME TO GIVE HIM HOMEWORK!!! i thought this is something that we students(including me) are dying to run away from. but well.... i got nothing to say now.

it was a long long journey back and forth. but then i think i will just take it as an experience. i mean, since i also have nothing to do on a saturday night, not as if if i don't teach tuition , i will lock myself in the room and be a good girl and study, then i might as well go travel a bit and earn a few extra bucks.

anyway it was quite fun la, and the mom was nicer that what i expected.

haha. gonna chiong. i guess it's almost time to be serious about everything, and start preparing for the OH SO DREADFUL FINALS.

tata!

congratulations to yuefeng Tang!
your grades are fantastic, and your GP grade is impressive!!!
wahaha. so glad that your one year hard work is finally paid off.

was browsing through friendster profile and found this picture.

all looking so innocent.
simply miss those time when everything was just so simple and fun.
study, play, study, play. and nothing else. once in a while, outing to place like NYDC, and then during breaks, played volleyball at the back of LT5, sometimes simply rot at cafe connection.
miss the good old days.
and the pink backpack.(it just spoilt last week)

we oughta be forward-looking. but i guess sometime it's good to look back once in a while, just to see how much we have grown and learnt.

tata!

hate the weather.

hate it when it rains almost everyday. it's cold and making me freeze the moment i step into an air-cond room. i'm practically trembling when i walk out of my room in the late evening, let alone in the showers.

it makes it seem misty and gloomy.
the energy level is running all time low. no energy, motivation to do anything at all. all i wanna do is to put on a warm jacket and sit in front of my lappie and enjoy my favourite drama. if not, just lie down on the bed and let myself fall off to slumberland.

but i CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there is calculus test tomorrow! and it's the chapter that i was most scared of during jc time. anyway, i will try my best. as i always do. =)

hopefully the sky can stop crying soon.
cos the tears are making my mood going downhill too.

anyway, gambateh! =DD

congratulations juniors!

BRAVO JJCIANS!
though i have no idea what the competition was all about, i still wanna say i'm so so proud of them. i didn't know about this till i saw it from kfc's bloggie just now. i'm just suaku. =_="



anyway,
i wanna say, i'm really frustrated by U.
please, don't make us worried okay? you're like so far away now, so please take good care of yourself and not make the rest of us worried for you. i know you don't like to be treated like a child, but if you think that mom calls you everyday is because she still thinks that you're a child then you're so very wrong. she just cares about you and she's worried that things are not going fine for you.
i'm really pissed. you won't know how mom feels. and you never try to understand. if i were you, i would wish that mom calls me everyday. i don't know what you're thinking.
why is it that everytime i know of your problems from the mouth of your bf? are we not closer to you?
and everytime i know about it, i'm requested not to tell mom. how can i?
what should i do to help while you're not even willing to tell me your problems?
i meet you on msn everyday and yet you refuse to tell me what you're up to.
then what else can i do?

everyone has got his/her own work to juggle with. so can you just settle your mind, and be independent? stop thinking so negatively. everything will turn out fine if you think it will.
sometimes i wonder why we are born so differently. i wish i can give you a little of my positivity. i hate that feeling of having to worry for someone.
you chose to go there, and you have got to make sure you spend your 6 months there happily!!!!

i dunno what you're thinking, really.
i wish you can read what i write here but i know there's no use. you'll just think even more negatively.

what should i do?
.......................

i just got to know about a very sad news from my roomie.
this explains why she has been sulky and all for the past few days.

one of the year 1 MAE guys(my roomie's friend) has actually been diagnosed with Leukemia. i was shocked when she told me about it. the worst thing is that, 200K is needed for the operation and chemotherapy. because he's from Mainland China, most charity organizations are not willing to help as they only provide funds for Singaporeans/PRs.
now they are trying to gain help though school and Students' Union. hopefully they can help to spread to everyone in school, and thus more funds can be collected.

but the thing is...

it's from the doctor that

he has only 30% of chances to survive.

and even if the operation is successful,

he will only live for another maximum of 3 years.


-SHOCKED-


he's only 18 years old, with bright future ahead.

does he really not deserve to live?? does he?

sometimes i wonder why.

GOD, ARE YOU THERE FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE?

they are suffering and they have come to a point where nothing can be done. they have already run out of solutions.

the boy's parents are farmer back in China and they can't afford such considerable amount of medical fares. and they can't send the guy back because being in such condition, the parents may just give up any time.


i have realised this since long long time ago.
LIFE IS REALLY FRAGILE.

you don't know what befalls you. what, when, how and WHY? you won't know why it's you.

sigh. so treasure ba.

MCYS drugs training cum dialogue session at MCYS Building.
got to know lots more on different types of drugs during the talk, after that we had a dialogue session with the director of Homes which we shared with each other our experience as volunteers.


after that i left early and didnt join them to toa payoh (bcos of the two coming midterms), but guess what! when i reached my doorstep, i found out that i DIDNT BRING MY KEY! and my roommie wasn't in!
so everything was in vain. my plan was to come back early and mug, but i ended up in tv room doing nothing productive waiting for my roomie to come back. though i managed to borrow a set of notes from my friend, it wasn't that effective a studying process.
i have decided not to go for the sentosa outing tomorrow. sometimes there are just things in life that we have to forgo.especially enjoyment like this, in the name of getting good grades.
haih. isn't this sad?

school is starting soon. like real soon.
sometimes i think maybe i shouldn't be so pessimistic about things.
while i'm doing things that everyone else is also doing, so what should i complain? and why should i feel miserable while everyone else doesn't?

anyway, i'm gonna start tutoring next week. primary 4 kid. hopefully i can manage.

alright.
time to get back to work.

cheerios!